OMG...i finally understand how i feel: i finally understand that i m never going to forget the memories i had with him and i will never forget the way i felt when he would hold me.or the way he smelt or the things he said or all the times he made me laugh.i will never be able to forget. i will always remeber everything and i will proably always compare every guy to him and i will always wonder if he ever felt the way i did and if he ever thinks about me. but just because i will remember him doesnt mean i wont be able to find someone new or that i will never fall in love again. it means that i have experienced what almost every other teenager has felt! He might have been the first boy i truly cared about and the first boy to brake my heart but he wont be the last...He will always have a little piece of my heart. and i m always going to love him...some people are just never meant to be forgotten and to me he is one of them! and even though it ended in a n unpeleasnt way. and we dont really talk anymore, i know me and jeff will be able to talk about this one day and laugh. So i'm finally letting go and hoping that one day me and jeff will be good friends.ps. This is me for real...I will always love you...ashlyn.......i hope he reads my xanga! so he can see how i feel. ok thats all..

So, yesterday we won our 1st game 21-2! it was great! then me and jessica went to the mall to look for my dress, and she had this really hot guy meet us there, his name is Blane! omg he is the hottest guy in Delaware! seriously 1 in a million! no lie. and he is totally smitten by jessica she is so freaken lucky! never in a million years would a guy like that take a second glance at me...every time i hang out with her she has every guy within a 2 mile radius stare, or flirt with her! seriously everytime she has these guys all over her touching her and trying to make her laugh! i wish i had guys swoon over me like that! but anyways i tried on this orange silky dress and it looked so good on me! it didnt show to much cleveage and it was to my knees and it made me look skinny and like i had somewhat of a butt...but idk if mike will like it.....my parental's are really pissing me off lately! grr...i want so bad to not be another sad dissapointment but it seems like no matter what i do. I' am! I think i need a therapist! well i guess thats all for now folks! i love me friends erin, bep and jessica! later loves<3

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